Neal McDonough may be known as one of the most ruthless villains in the "Yellowstone" universe, but there's one thing the actor himself has never done: watched the show.
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McDonough, 60, portrayed ruthless businessman Malcolm Beck on the hit Taylor Sheridan series, appearing in six episodes during Season 2.
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But reliving the performance is something McDonough admitted he avoids.
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"I've never seen it.
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You know, I don't watch any of my stuff," McDonough said on the "Arroyo Grande" podcast.
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He went on to explain why he refuses to watch himself on screen.
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"As a method actor, I can tell you if I look at a frame – that's why I don't watch any of my stuff.
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If I look at a frame of a show from 20 years ago, I know exactly the thought I was thinking.
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I know the song I was thinking about.
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I know where I was going.
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So going back to me sometimes can be really kind of traumatic and painful," he shared.
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Even attending his own movie premieres doesn't necessarily mean he'll watch the finished product.
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"I'll go to premieres of our films, and I'll do the red carpet.
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[His wife] Ruvé and I will walk in, out the exit, grab a nice dinner someplace, go to the party after.
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‘How'd you like the movie?'
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I loved it.’
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I just don't like to watch myself," he said.
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And McDonough isn't losing sleep over whether he delivered in a particular scene.
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"I was there on the day," he said.
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I know I did a great job because God gave me a talent.
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I'm terrible at pounding nails.
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I'm not very good at telling jokes.
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But as Ruvé said, ‘Man, you can act.’
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And so I don't need to look to see if it was good or not.
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They keep on hiring me, right?
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If they keep on hiring, I must be doing something right."
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His decision to avoid watching "Yellowstone" comes years after a painful chapter in McDonough's life that left him questioning whether his Hollywood career was over.
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McDonough has claimed that he was fired from ABC's "Scoundrels" in 2010 after refusing to perform intimate scenes with a female co-star, saying the decision effectively derailed his career and left him struggling financially and personally.
"What time is the bar open?
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That was generally my thought process back then," he explained to Fox News Digital in May.
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"It was, you know, fired from a show because I wouldn't kiss a woman.
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No one would hire me because they thought I was this religious nut bag, which is that I love my wife so much.
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And no one can understand it, no one could understand it."
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McDonough has also spoken openly about his struggles with alcohol during that period.
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He said he "was always a drinker," but "it became a bad problem" after he said Hollywood had blackballed him.
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"I lost the house, lost the cars, lost everything," he said.
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Then his wife, Ruvé, stepped in.
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"She grabbed me and says, it's us or the bottle, you choose," McDonough recalled.
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"And I never looked back."
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The ultimatum changed everything for the longtime actor.
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They share five children and have also built a professional partnership, producing projects together including "Boon," "The Warrant: Breaker's Law," "Homestead" and "The Last Rodeo."
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